diary 6 (december 12)





i left new york city for the month, i stayed in toronto and walked around and rode the streetcars back and forth and talked to strangers mostly and had long breakfasts every morning, i stayed in rural canada and moped around and went in the woods and played board games, i stayed in detroit and was back to where i was six months ago, i stayed with my grandma and never left the house, i stayed with my family and had a real christmas, i stayed way upstate in a cabin with my closest old friends and laughed all day. in-between and nostalgic and i started having dreams in my sleep again.






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diary 4 (october 12)



i’ve been working (on photos) a lot, or at least it feels like it but i know that i’m not really, maybe it’s that it’s becoming more of an effort. this month i pulled into myself,  more of a homebody, not much of one but more than usual. going to sleep at dawn and waking up a couple hours before dusk most days makes it difficult to be normal. every day is still different. a new experience or encounter or sight and all of that. i’m trying to think of the things i’ve done but i can’t figure out if they were two days ago or even this month or two or three months ago or never. i need to stop thinking “i’ll do it tomorrow”. the storefronts were all covered in spiderwebs and hanging ghouls, the tree- and walkup-lined neighborhood streets covered in fallen leaves. hurricane happened, the trains stopped and i felt like i was in an apocalypse in some places. i need to start remembering more about everything or stop trying so hard to. i’ve realized that i’m doing things i dreamed of but by now i’m used to it and it all feels normal, for some reason i didn’t ever think of that happening.



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cirque


for haunt magazine
stylist / jaclyn bethany
set design / blow up
hair / sean gallagher
makeup / ivy ermert
models / fernanda at s, taylor at s, oleisa at apm
assistants / rachel potucek, loan vuong, sophia bonny



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diary 3 (september 12)



i moved again in brooklyn. summer has passed and i didn’t realize it. i’ve had trouble realizing anything that’s going on around me beside little things. a lot of days i wake up and go out with no plan and take trains and walk for hours and watch things. i’m in love with the city. i have the closest thing to a ‘home’ since moving away. the month passed so quickly i can hardly remember even the first days of september or any in between. i wish that i could share more of the non-diary photographs that i’ve been shooting these past months. i need more time for everything.



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diary 2 (august 12)




this month went by quick, moved rooms in my apartment and got new roommates twice, i went to maryland for a week where i lived in a huge house and slept on the floor with thirty other photographers from online, i got very sick for a while. i spent a lot of my time reading books i picked up off the side of the road.




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diary 1 (july 12)



i moved to new york city on my own a month ago, i think i'm going to keep a monthly photo diary on here because i'm forgetting every day already. i can hear ice cream truck music outside where i live and i've met lots of good friends and i've been sleeping only in the morning/afternoon and not eating enough and spending a long time on the subway and wearing the same clothes too much and every day has been good.



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